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SEOUL & BLACK

Saturday, 15 July 2017


Sometimes how I wish I got someone who will understand me well, the way I speak, the way I behave, the way I think and many more. How I wish I have someone who will understand the way I love about song and the way I describe it. I want to share how I felt about certain songs in my language. But no one will listen to it. I’m longing to that attention. I hope I will meet someone who can listen to all my rants and weirdness. I can be pretty and ugly at the same time. I hope someone will accept all my flaws without condemn it and vice versa that I also accept his flaws. I wanna grow old with someone who will love me unconditionally, who accept me no matter what I am. To be honest I love gentle manners because it show how much that person love and respect their lover. For me no need harsh treatment but it all depends on individual.

I have couples of favs songs right now and one of them that I want to talk is SEOUL by LEE HYORI (yesss, it is a Korean song, don’t judge me!) I love all sort of songs in the world, any genre will do for me if the song is good.

SEOUL, is somehow my interpretation about some issues in my life. When I heard this song, I’m falling in love right away. It gives really soothing vibe and somehow darkness in that song. When I read the lyrics (English), I kinda related to it. I don’t know why but it feels kind of familiar. The song is not too dark but it is not a bright song either. It’s like in between of it. The song itself very special to LEE HYORI – it is interpreted her feelings towards SEOUL, how she felt that she’s not happy and not being herself in that city. That she doesn’t enjoyed her time and she kinda lost herself. She wants to find herself back, do the things that she loves. p/s: if I’m not mistaken. I love the melody of this song. The music video of SEOUL is so beautiful and mesmerizing <3 it is amazing!


Other song of her that I love is BLACK. Black is a dark song! Well at least for me. Ohh gosh, I love the music video and I love the way she represents her song in that mv. I love the melody, mann it is really good. BLACK is a song that want us to go back to the basic thing in life, because black itself is a basic color. Like she finds herself back, like being ordinary girl. I don’t know how to describe this song actually. But the song itself is soooo amazing. I love it so much!






Well of course I have English fav songs too but I’m gonna talk about that in other post (well I don’t know when it is hahaha). 


Please go and watch her music videos, SEOUL & BLACK and give lots of love to that music video :)

Have fun!


cherry blossoms (sakura)

Thursday, 4 May 2017


credit photos: webrowns.com

yes, i took these photos from that website as i didn't get the chance to see cherry blossoms as myself. i love calling cherry blossoms as sakura because it is more special to me. i love sakura since high school and now i am full time employee. it has been 13 years since i fallen in love with sakura. 

even my youtube channel (private) is name by sakura. and my skrin computer is sakura too. spring has begun in some country already and it is summer already for certain country. mine, was full year of summer. humid and wet weather because there is rainy season. i live in tropical country. i'm not complaining though. 

somehow me myself love fall season even though in this country there is no such a thing. but last year for the first time, i got to experienced the fall season in istanbul, turkey. it was a beautiful weather for me. a crispy air that made me happy and it likes dream comes true. istanbul is beautiful and stunning country. i need to make a special post for istanbul. 

i hope one day i can see sakura with loved ones. i want to see in real life, to smell it and touch it. i will definitely take so many photos of sakura (cherry blossoms). i think this post will be a dedication for sakura (cherry blossoms) :)
 

wednesday thoughts

Wednesday, 15 February 2017



these two make me so envious and feel butterflies at the same time. i love all those sweet moments of them and kim woo bin (grim reaper) & sunny (kim sun). i miss this drama the most. still can't move on and yet i am still listening to some songs of this drama. not gonna move anytime soon. i did purchased more song in itunes hahaha wasting my money for this drama. but i don't regret it.

it such a sunny day and i went to the gym today. did some walking in treadmill and cycling too. i did spent an hour and it's really good - the feeling after workout (even though it is not heavy workout). but i am more than thankful because i know myself. i am super lazy when it comes to exercise (well other things as well like cooking, home chores and etc hahaha). so many bad traits. poor my future husband. 

i felt kinda lost lately and i don't know why. i might knowing the reason why i felt like that but i don't feel sure about it. i am so afraid of what future hold for me. i always told myself that just follow the flow of my life but deep in my heart i am just afraid. but not gonna confuse myself and i will keep trying to have a better life. what i want the most in my life is happiness and blessing from Allah s.w.t. and my parents. i want to better a better daughter to  my parents because i never be the one since i was born. i never pleased my parents. i always argued with my parents especially my dad. i felt so sorry and wrong for doing all those bad behaviors. i am so sorry, dad. i love you so much and i hope you know that. i love my family so much. i want them to be happy.

                               i've big concerned how to settle my education loan with ptptn. i did take a huge amount of loan from them. i felt so stressed thinking how am i gonna make money and pay all my education loan. i hope i can get like rm100000 to just pay my education loan. well in my dream haha. 


dokkaebi/goblin

Sunday, 12 February 2017






























yes, i am one of the among people who got goblin's syndrome. to be honest i am so obsessed with this drama - until now. i can't get enough of it and i don't want to move on, yet. i wanna still be in this feeling for this kdrama - goblin. in fact i'm currently re-watching goblin episode 1 and gosh i miss this drama. 

fact - i don't feel like this for every kdrama that i've been watched. only apply for some kdrama, not all. that's why for me it is special feeling that i need to protect it while it lasts. okay, why i fallen in love with this kdrama? the reason is because i love the plot itself and the way they all elaborate the characters makes this drama even more alive and charming. i don't really know all these actors and actresses. i do know gong yoo, lee dong wook and yoo in na but never be their fan before. but man, now i am their fan. take my heart hahaha and ost (music) of this drama is really good. i've been listening couple of songs everyday. i'm not be kidding. the songs is really da bomb. like seriously how come they make such good songs. i wanna know their secrets. you can feel the emotion through the songs. it's pretty amazing for me. and i love their bromance in this drama between gong yoo and lee dong wook (sometimes featuring sungjae). they are so hilarious and i love watching behind the scenes. they are so cute too. my eyes is so hurt after that hahaha 

i already falling in love with gong yoo and kim go eun. they are so pretty and make me envious of their chemistry in this kdrama. i'm starting to like kim go eun's acting. she's so beautiful and i don't even understand why some knetizen said that she's ugly. gosh i sometimes really hate knetizen hahaha i don't get it why she got so many hate comments on her looks. i mean she's a natural beauty. knetizen - sometimes really annoying. peace

i recommend to all of you to watch this drama and you will not be regret, trust me. i do not regret watched it at all. this is why sometimes i don't want to watch kdrama - because i don't want to involve with this kind of feeling. it is really hard to get rid of.  need some times to feel normal again (why so serious) hahaha.

anyway have a nice sunday evening and be ready for this coming monday. have a nice week ahead guys :)



Dear Diary

Tuesday, 3 January 2017



Dear 2016,

It’s the time of the year to reflect all the memories back. There are some good memories and bad memories that happened in last year. I want to cherish all good memories while bad memories will remained as lessons in my life. I will take it as a reminder for me to strive for a better life, I guess.

I couldn’t remember what have happened in January until April 2016. Oh I forgot that my brother’s wedding took a place in March 2016. How could I forget those memories. I’m becoming more grandma now haha.
But I remember clearly what happened in May, in May I have office outing and I am the one organized it with my others colleagues. We were planned it starting from Feb until early May and the progressed getting more and we were a bit stressed. But after finished the event it is so worth. I had the best time so far in my career journey with that event. So happy and proud of it. 

In June and July, it is Ramadan time and after that we were celebrated the Hari Raya (Syawal month) and I ate lots of good food. In Nov, my family (mom, dad & sister) and I went to Istanbul, Turkey for 9 days (of course it’s for holiday). Istanbul is so beautiful and I love historical places. That will be a separate post for that trip. 

I did exchanged gift with my colleagues and also they gave money for me to buy a present for my birthday. And I bought myself a watch. I bought Daniel Wellington watch which is Classic Black (newcollection). I love it so much. I am wearing it right now. Thanks my colleagues. 

And fast forward, we already welcome New Year. I never celebrate New Year but this year my family and I happen to be in my cousin’s house for her daughter’s birthday party. 

Anyways Happy New Year guys!! Wish you all the best and a wonderful day ahead.